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The Truth Behind the Fantasy of Porn

Posted by iusbvision on March 31, 2007

Sex-packed porn films featuring freshly-dyed blondes whose evocative eyes say “I want you” is quite possibly one of the greatest deceptions of all time. Trust me, I know. I did it all the time and I did it for the lust of power and the love of money. I never liked sex. I never wanted sex and in fact I was more apt to spend time with Jack Daniels than some of the studs I was paid to “fake it” with. That’s right none of us freshly-dyed blondes like doing porn. In fact, we hate it. We hate being touched by strangers who care nothing about us. We hate being degraded with their foul smells and sweaty bodies. Some women hate it so much you can hear them vomiting in the bathroom between scenes. Others can be found outside smoking an endless chain of Marlboro lights.

But the porn industry wants YOU to think we porn actresses love sex. They want you to think we enjoy being degraded by all kinds of repulsive acts. The truth, porn actresses have showed up on the set not knowing about certain requirements and were told by porn producers to do it or leave without being paid. Work or never work again. Yes, we made the choice. Some of us needed the money. But we were manipulated and coerced and even threatened. Some of us caught HIV from that coercion. I personally caught Herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. Another porn actress went home after a long night of numbing her pain and put a pistol to her head and pulled the trigger. Now she’s dead.

It’s safe to say most women who turn to porn acting as a money-making enterprise, probably didn’t grow up in healthy childhoods either. Indeed, many actresses admit they’ve experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and neglect by parents. Some were raped by relatives and molested by neighbors. When we were little girls we wanted to play with dollies and be mommies, not have big scary men get on top of us. So we were taught at a young age that sex made us valuable. The same horrible violations we experienced then, we relive through as we perform our tricks for you in front of the camera. And we hate every minute of it. We’re traumatized little girls living on anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol acting out our pain in front of YOU who continue to abuse us.

As we continue to traumatize ourselves by making more adult films, we use more and more drugs and alcohol. We live in constant fear of catching AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases. Every time there’s an HIV scare we race to the nearest clinic for an emergency checkup. Pornographers insist giving viewers the fantasy sex they demand all the while sacrificing the very ones who make it happen. In other words, no condoms allowed. Herpes, gonorrhea, syphilis, chlamydia, and other diseases are the normal anxieties we walk around with daily. We get tested monthly but we know testing isn’t prevention. Besides worrying about catching diseases from porn sex, there are other harmful activities we engage in that are also very dangerous. Some of us have had physical tearing and damage to internal body parts.

When porn actresses call it a day and head home we attempt to have normal healthy relationships but some of our boyfriends get jealous and physically abuse us. So instead we marry our porn directors while others of us prefer lesbian relationships. It’s a real memory making moment when our daughter accidentally walks out and sees mommy kissing another girl. My daughter will vouch for that one.

On our days off we walk around like zombies with a beer in one hand and a
shot of whiskey in the other. We aren’t up to cleaning so we live in filth most of the time or we hire a sweet foreign lady to come in and clean up our mess. Porn Actresses aren’t the best cooks either. Ordering food in is normal for us and most of the time we throw up after we eat because we’re bulimic.

For porn actresses who have children, we are the world’s WORST mothers. We
yell and scream and hit our kids for no reason. Most of the time we are intoxicated or high and our four year olds are the ones picking us up off the floor. When clients come over for sex, we lock our children in their rooms and tell them to be quiet. I use to give my  daughter a beeper and tell her to wait at the park until I was finished.

The truth is there IS NO fantasy in porn. It’s all a lie. A closer look into the scenes of a porn star’s life will show you a movie porn doesn’t want you to see. The real truth is we porn actresses want to end the shame and trauma of our lives but we can’t do it alone. We need you men to fight for our freedom and give us back our honor. We need you to hold us in your strong arms while we sob tears over our deep wounds and begin to heal. We want you throw out our movies and help piece together the shattered fragments of our lives. We need you to pray for us the next fifteen years so God will hear and repair our ruined lives.

So don’t believe the lie anymore. Porn is nothing more than fake sex and lies on videotape. Trust me, I know.

Shelley Lubben
Former Porn Actress

Article printed with permission

See more of her story at www.shelleylubben.com

10 Responses to “The Truth Behind the Fantasy of Porn”

  1. Craig said

    Shelley. I received your link via a Christian mail drop that I get called the Generous Husband. Your story was heart renching and I am deaply sorry for you and the circumstances that drove you here. I have no great words to add but am saddened that the world is showing this to be the view of relationships. I am happily married with 2 kids and experience the joy of commitment, promise keeping, faithfulness as well as intimacy in my marriage. I love my wife dearly and would sacrifice anything for her. I pray that the Lord will lead you and your friends to men such as this and commit to you to pray for you, your family and your colleagues. Thankyou for your stand and God bless you in your recovery.

  2. Ash said

    Sister
    It would be an honor to pray for you and your coworkers. I hope you realize that God loves you and will be there for you. Thank you for your braverly to stand and tell the truth.

  3. I too received this link from the generous husband’s newsletter. All I can say is wow! Thank you for the brutal, honest truth. God bless you!

  4. Shane said

    If you want to leave a note of encouragement or prayer for Shelley, I’d go to her website. The link is at the bottom of the article. It was reprinted from her website. I don’t know what this blog is, but it isn’t about porn generally, and I don’t think Shelley actually reads it.

  5. Justin said

    Another Generous Husband reader here. Deception is the language of our era, and your story exemplifies that sad reality. I think a lot of guys need this to see what they are really watching, and you’ve done a very good job at portraying the truth. Keep that momentum and that spirit. You have people praying for you and others who hurt like you do. The Lord bless you and keep you, the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious unto you. The Lord lift up his countenance upon you, and give you peace. (Numbers 6:24-26)

  6. Pat said

    I too receive the Generous Husband mailings. What a sick society we live in. I saw new commercials from some very well known restaurants today and was shocked. We have to pray and we have to turn away from this scourge. The church is basically the same as the world when it comes to porn. Shelley, you go girl on exposing this junk. God use her to bring light into a putrid darkness with genuine hurting, bleeding victims.

  7. mike said

    Thank you. I don’t receive any mailings but I’m glad I have ammunition now to fight my own perversion.

    In Christ,

    Mike

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  9. Michael Odion said

    I am a happily married man with kids.
    this truh has enabled me to view porn a step beyond the evil that it is.

    I have sent the article to some friends for enlightemment and prayers.
    God bless you and strenghten you with all power and blessing unto victory.

    Odion

  10. Angelo said

    You can put lipstick on porn but it’s still porn. Has anybody ever seen the Safe For Work videos on YouTube? The amygdalae, which are activated by pornographic images, is tuned to facial expressions. Shame on you YouTube, that S.F.W. stuff should be censored.

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